“The Prophet frowned and turned away because there came to him the
blind man, [interrupting]. But what would make you perceive, [O
Muhammad], that perhaps he might be purified or be reminded and
the remembrance would benefit him? As for he who thinks himself
without need, to him you give attention. And not upon you [is any
blame] if he will not be purified. But as for he who came to you
striving [for knowledge] while he fears [God], from him you are
distracted.” (`Abasa 80:1-10, The Holy Qur’an)
I need a new therapist
As a late-in-life, self-diagnosed autistic Muslim woman of colour, I have decades of trauma to unpack. This pandemic has really been hard on me. I make space for the reality that although I am safe, loved and supported, I am so challenged by the extra levels of anxiety lock-down brings, especially being the main carerContinue reading “I need a new therapist”
ND Collective is live!
I’m so excited to share that the ND Co. is live! Check it out! It’s 1 am here. I wake up at night when my kids are asleep. That’s when I can lose myself in blissful, restorative hyperfocus. That’s when I can truly engage in my special interests, with minimal interruptions. No cries for “Mama!”Continue reading “ND Collective is live!”
My autistic daughter
I don’t go out much. I’d like to. But the nature of how much my eldest needs me, especially in this pandemic, makes it tricky. To be perfectly honest, I’m often really anxious even when I am out. There is too much chatter in my mind. Too much sensory overload. I went out for aContinue reading “My autistic daughter”
Mawlid
We had a recent family gathering to celebrate the birth of our Beloved Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him). My daughters were running around. Everywhere. Up and down. Laughing. Smiling. Joyful. No desire to sit down calmly like the adults. There was that small part of me that felt like “Oh man. MyContinue reading “Mawlid”
Oh sleep
Sleep. Sleep can be so hard. It’s something I both crave and struggle with. When my eldest has a late night, she sleeps restlessly at night and struggles for the rest of the day. Much like me. But I’m in my thirties, and she’s only 5. I remind myself throughout the day that she’s notContinue reading “Oh sleep”
Why I don’t want my daughter to ‘obey me’
There is a lot of emphasis on obedience in the Muslim community. “You must obey your parents!” is something I heard constantly growing up. It was used, sledgehammer style, to force me to deny my needs and wants in order to placate my father’s. It became another tool of spiritual abuse. What is the costContinue reading “Why I don’t want my daughter to ‘obey me’”
Greetings of peace!
Welcome to my blog! I’m an autistic Muslim mama keen to share my parenting and reparenting journey. I have two bold and beautiful daughters. One is autistic like me, and the other is neurotypical like my husband. I haven’t been able to find any resources depicting Muslim autistic girls and women in a joyful light,Continue reading “Greetings of peace!”
My daughter’s diagnosis journey
Right from the start of her life, my eldest daughter was a force of nature. She had always been incredibly bright, sensitive, and so very communicative. By the time she was 18 months, she was already speaking in full sentences and singing nursery rhymes from memory. She also had many different struggles. She was aContinue reading “My daughter’s diagnosis journey”
My self-diagnosis journey
Autistic girls, especially brown Muslim autistic girls, often go undiagnosed – like I did, for many, many years. As young girls and later as women, we are much more vulnerable to abuse. I was already groomed for abuse after my own childhood neglect and abuse. Home was unsafe, with my father’s explosive anger and myContinue reading “My self-diagnosis journey”
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