“The Prophet frowned and turned away because there came to him the
blind man, [interrupting]. But what would make you perceive, [O
Muhammad], that perhaps he might be purified or be reminded and
the remembrance would benefit him? As for he who thinks himself
without need, to him you give attention. And not upon you [is any
blame] if he will not be purified. But as for he who came to you
striving [for knowledge] while he fears [God], from him you are
distracted.” (`Abasa 80:1-10, The Holy Qur’an)


My heart is so full. My daughter was beaming after her first day at pre-school, and the head teacher said everything was ‘perfect’. I could feel the knots dissolving within me, and each one dissolves a little more, each time I pick her up and see her smiling face. She went through a very difficultContinue reading “Relief!”

Ko-Fi page!

I’m excited about my new Ko-Fi page, and would love your input on what kind of content you’d like to see. Every little bit of support helps!

Already December

Wow. It’s already December. This is a whole new world, a whole new life. This has not at all been a year I have expected. I’m autistic, so I like plans. I like to be prepared. I need to feel some kind of external control, to help me feel better inside. I know it neverContinue reading “Already December”

I need a new therapist

As a late-in-life, self-diagnosed autistic Muslim woman of colour, I have decades of trauma to unpack. This pandemic has really been hard on me. I make space for the reality that although I am safe, loved and supported, I am so challenged by the extra levels of anxiety lock-down brings, especially being the main carerContinue reading “I need a new therapist”

ND Collective is live!

I’m so excited to share that the ND Co. is live! Check it out! It’s 1 am here. I wake up at night when my kids are asleep. That’s when I can lose myself in blissful, restorative hyperfocus. That’s when I can truly engage in my special interests, with minimal interruptions. No cries for “Mama!”Continue reading “ND Collective is live!”

My autistic daughter

I don’t go out much. I’d like to. But the nature of how much my eldest needs me, especially in this pandemic, makes it tricky. To be perfectly honest, I’m often really anxious even when I am out. There is too much chatter in my mind. Too much sensory overload. I went out for aContinue reading “My autistic daughter”


We had a recent family gathering to celebrate the birth of our Beloved Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him). My daughters were running around. Everywhere. Up and down. Laughing. Smiling. Joyful. No desire to sit down calmly like the adults. There was that small part of me that felt like “Oh man. MyContinue reading “Mawlid”

Oh sleep

Sleep. Sleep can be so hard. It’s something I both crave and struggle with. When my eldest has a late night, she sleeps restlessly at night and struggles for the rest of the day. Much like me. But I’m in my thirties, and she’s only 5. I remind myself throughout the day that she’s notContinue reading “Oh sleep”


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